so today i realized that i'm really effin weird. because i say the alphabet out of random boredom. but i mean i've always known that i'm weird so that's whatever. but i mean to just seriously blurt out random things... makes me laugh.
so today was mommy day, and it started off rocky and isn't over yet of course. but there was breakfast and random arguments that didn't make any sense then they just continued, but it ended i suppose. for dinner we had lobster and crablegss... with little shrimp. a baked patatoe, it was fantabulous.
so my mind is clogged...........my thoughts are just stuck. and it's not with just my writing it's with just about any and everything. okay well i know but it's whatever, part of me is used to it. though it comes from just being sick and tired of life, and part of me wants something to go right for a change... but i guess it's too much to ask for.
now my stomach hurts like crazy idk why...but its some pretty bad pain...and then there's a sharp pain that keeps coming through my shoulder. right now i'm just sick.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Saturday, May 9, 2009
it is what it is, and i am what i am.
so yeah, it's been a month andd 5 days since i've touched this! i'm slipping majorly, but i ususally don't like to blab about nothing you know? at this particular moment in time i'm watching the spirit but not very closely it seems because i cannot type and watch.
but anyway in the past month i've gone through an emotionaly rollercoaster and i've finally gotten off. and now i'm feeling s-o-g double-o-d. i have just learned to do what people have told me to, and that is forgive and not forget. of course i'm still loving my first love, but right now i just want to be with someone who isn't always changing their mind with me. all.the.time! does that mean i don't love the guy i'm with? nope, that's a total lie. he's a person that completes me you know? and i believe he knows that a part of me is stuck on the other guy, but why go there when it's better not to.
yesterday people were trying to hook me up, once with a guy. disregarding the fact that i am happily taken. then later i was told that i should be bi, because i would look good with a friend of mine. can we say "WOW" but anyway.
samuel jackson is yelling lol well when does he not yell.
umm so i have some work to do and some songs to download but i totally don't know where to start on that. i have a rough draft of my research report to do and that is due tuesday, but i'll be doing the research monday during 2nd period and lunch... and then i'll be writing it monday night after gossip girl and during the hills and all that good stuff. but i promise to do all my english stuff before i leave for florida! that is my goal! must not give up on that...i need to get my head on straight now. i'm slipping. this whole year i've been slipping and now i think this my worse performance academically this whole entire year, and part of me is ashamed. i've been so caught up in petty high school stuff that i'm lacking what is truely me. and that is intelligence.
xoxo
dani
but anyway in the past month i've gone through an emotionaly rollercoaster and i've finally gotten off. and now i'm feeling s-o-g double-o-d. i have just learned to do what people have told me to, and that is forgive and not forget. of course i'm still loving my first love, but right now i just want to be with someone who isn't always changing their mind with me. all.the.time! does that mean i don't love the guy i'm with? nope, that's a total lie. he's a person that completes me you know? and i believe he knows that a part of me is stuck on the other guy, but why go there when it's better not to.
yesterday people were trying to hook me up, once with a guy. disregarding the fact that i am happily taken. then later i was told that i should be bi, because i would look good with a friend of mine. can we say "WOW" but anyway.
samuel jackson is yelling lol well when does he not yell.
umm so i have some work to do and some songs to download but i totally don't know where to start on that. i have a rough draft of my research report to do and that is due tuesday, but i'll be doing the research monday during 2nd period and lunch... and then i'll be writing it monday night after gossip girl and during the hills and all that good stuff. but i promise to do all my english stuff before i leave for florida! that is my goal! must not give up on that...i need to get my head on straight now. i'm slipping. this whole year i've been slipping and now i think this my worse performance academically this whole entire year, and part of me is ashamed. i've been so caught up in petty high school stuff that i'm lacking what is truely me. and that is intelligence.
xoxo
dani
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