same crap same life nothing changes but the days of the week.

so for the past month or whatever life has been a freaking rollercoaster. everything is no longer consistent and i'm starting to hate it. there has been much i have yet to report but since i haven't been able to write poetry might as well put my keyboard to work ya know? anyway, i've decided to go back to highschool life, the usual drama shit and the occasional pissing people off for the hell of it. just because it's getting ridiculous to pre-plan your life when you're a junior. there's enough stress as it is being 16 almost 17 and slightly intelligent, and to throw love into the mix it seems throws me off balance. now that doesn't mean ms. dani is throwing the key to her heart away, it just means that it'll be harder to get to it than the way it use to be.

anyway, as i'm typing this, i'm freezing just a lot, watching dave chappelle, listening to my iTunes library, and talking to my buddy-o. and i've realized that music makes it easier for me to function which makes it hard to work in class of course which is why i like band and choir [yes that does mean i'm a nerd] but i mean its a musical enviroment and that's the type that makes it easier to think about stuff. regardless of the fact that they both irritate me in their own way.

all this week i've been highly busy right? startingmonday with band practice then tuesday with band practice and then a clinic and a concert the same night. wednesday was just hell becayse tuesday night it seems the whole junior class got a call saying we've all had 3or more tardies and had dentention and if we didn't go there was suspension. i was like "what the hell?!" well wheni get to school i see parents, pissed as ever at school, turns out it was an accident. meaning i got my ass out of bed at 6:50 instead of 7:30 to be at school early for a mistake? yeahhh...lets just say i wasn't the happiest of people that day. but aside from the busy side someone decided to cop an attitude out be me not saying hi or w/e when this person said he was giving me space. now, why exactly would you be bothering me with that if i asked for space. i mean seriously. sometimes i do not understand the male species, bunch of greedy ones i say...but that's what ever. the situation frustrates me enough.

oh and also this week, i've worked up to a new level of freaking mysefl and others out. which isn't that hard for me to do, but seeing as i have been avoiding a person... Yeah I Was Avoiding You. i've been more obsessive i guess, talking with everyone else. which creeps me out just a tad. because it's like i'm trying to fill up a hole the should never be closed but i mean people come in and out of life and the way they act shows how much they really care. and if they don't make an effort to fix anything regardless of how persistency has worked out in the past for them, if you want to keep someone you'll try your hardest to keep them. but pushing them away or feeling that you're doing what's best to let them go means that you didn't really care if they were beside you or not. and that makes you an asshole.

Umm... i believe that's it. i'm tired is hell and still freezing my ass off so i gotta warm myself and go to bed.

peace-love-&&dani ♥